Hi, Dozy and welcome to the forum. Your question is a valid one and needs to be adressed in a full, and I hope, a spiritually satisfying way.
Oddly enough, many feel comfortable with the structured and ordered way of life offered by the WTS. In this system one knows where everything is, because everything has it's place. For instance you know exactly what you are going to do Sunday morning without any need for thought. And in this way, all things going well, one can even allow a feeling of spiritual warmth to permeate the soul. But this condition is only predicated on all things going well. Which includes the supression of even a modicum of curiosity.
Suppose, just suppose you DID have a question. Remember that the WTS exists in a paradox. On the one hand, they display themselves as an open and free society, yet on the other they are in reality a closed and fortified one. They neither invite nor encourage scrutiny. The answers they provide, based on systemized explanations, MUST be accepted. No debate is tolerated. The problem is that anything can be "explained" even a flat earth. It is when the "explanation" is non-negotiable, that the trouble starts.
But someone may ask: "Why ask questions? Why not just accept what the Organisation says?"Thats the catch. Those are the people that the WTS is made for. In this way one "finds one place" - and can even, in some way, convince oneself that one is in a "relationship" with God.
However, there are some, who will not abdicate such responsibility to a bunch of secretive, imperious despots who rely on the gullible. We feel that there is a different profession of faith that is more relevant to the needs of the human psyche.
Faith is an indominable quality of the human spirit that is nurtured in devotion, and developed in intangibles. It is not a physical reality that can be measured by any material conceptualization. Submisson of a 10 hr monthly report, reflects, not a devotion to any "god" but an acquiescence to a largely unresponsive system, devoted only to the maintainence of its own authority, and the exacting of its own demands. If one can measure one's relationship to "god" in those terms then one has a niche in the WTS.
Our God is not like that. He does not require, nor does He impose a forced need to pronounce a "name" - though there IS a name that is above every name [and it sure as hell ain't jehovah] - He inhabits a realm that is beyond infinity, farther that the imagination can ever encompass, yet He is as near as an outstretched fingertip. You dont need to read about Him in any tightly controlled, and anonymously written magazine because you can see Him in the beauty of a butterfly's wing, or a child's teardrop.
Everytime you feel your heartbeat for a loved one, you experience the power of God. An inspiring melody, or an awesome sunset are His signature. But - and this is big but - you need to recognize this.
All else is a non essential ingredient of faith. A church. A bunch of pals. In a funny kind of way they tell who, or what, God really is. You [and others] will find buddies like that right here
Cheers